Then just a few weeks later throw you to the side like it’s nothing. I started, once again, to do what I do best. I met new girls, flirted and hung with them, but before It escalated, I met someone in the weirdest of circumstances. On face-time with my friend. It started as a joke. I was flirting as hard as I could with her, just having some fun joking around with my friend. Then the girl and I actually started talking. We kept talking for a couple days. She was super cute, funny, and was being flirty back. I don’t know why but I was excited for her to come visit. I wanted to take this girl on a dinner date, not even having ever met her in person before. I don’t know what it was we just clicked a little bit, nothing too serious, we just really got along.
Tonight we face-timed for the first time and talked for awhile. She then brought up how she knows about how I am a sweet talker and a really good flirt and that she told my friend to help her not do anything with me because she knows she’s going to want to. She said this nonchalant and half as a joke, but it annoyed me. I stopped talking or flirting with any other girl, not because I had to or she asked, I just had no desire to. When I talked with her I was being genuine. Every word I said I meant. I know it really isn’t a big deal what she said but it made me think. Think about what love, more so failed love, can do to you. What facade it can make you put up for over a year. A facade, that you might not think much about, but others around you do. A facade where it gets to the point girls don’t know if you’re “sweet talking” them or being genuine. This is where I find myself, writing at 3 am on a Thursday.